I cannot believe that year ago today, my life changed forever and in ways I never even imagined when a tiny baby girl was placed into my arms for the first time.
Your first year of your life has been the best year of my life.
Parenting has by far been the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I told a friend this year that parenting has felt like being a fish out of water desperately gasping for air and all the other fish are all like, it’s cool, you’ll figure out how to breathe again.
This year has most certainly had its ups and downs. But watching you learn to roll over, sit up, crawl and seeing the world all over through your eyes- your excitement at the ducks in the lake or the fish at the aquarium or even a tree as it sways in the wind- have been the most exciting and rewarding experiences of my life.
I love you so entirely and so completely that I can’t even imagine loving another baby as much as I love you, but I know in January when your little sister arrives, my heart will simply grow like the Grinch’s and there will be enough room for two.
At each new milestone you reach, I get this mix of feelings of both pride and sadness. Pride in the fact that you have now accomplished something and sadness in the fact that it’s one more thing you do not need me for anymore. I suppose it will always be this way. When you start kindergarten, when you ride a bike for the first time, when you graduate high school and when you get married, I will be there smiling for you, but teary eyed for me.
The day you were born was the day I first became a mother. Your Mama. It will be a day I always remember because you changed my life that day. You are my greatest accomplishment and I can’t wait to see what life holds for you in the future.
I love you with everything that I am, with every fiber of my being.
Happy birthday, baby girl.